Being Professional......

               "Big dreaming is free but to achieve them, you have to pay BIG prize."

               Well, nothing new or strange in this thought but only a little bit of experience I can say. As you can see, this blog is coming after a long interval. I will not give typical excuse like I didn't get time as that's not true. But yes, one thing is there. In last February I was in Coimbatore, In March I was in Bangalore and in April It is Ahmadabad (Gandhinagar) till now. So this reverse A(Ahmadabad), B(Bangalore), C(Coimbatore) has made my mind unstable so I could not write anything which is publicly and blogly(its my self-made word, don't check dictionary) accepted.

               Ok, enough of excuses. So here the thing is this professional MNC job is making me 'deadly' professional. As sometimes I observe myself and think 'Oh... once upon a time I was also living Life!!! I was reading good books, playing my guitar, watching TV, also writing blogs and lot more...'  And I don't like this 'was' replacing 'is'. Many people think what's new in that, this is true life. You have to do all these things for money. You are in a TCS still why you are crying like this? Yes, you all are right. I have a good job with a good salary but my mindset is little different. I always follow 'Do what you like' policy in life till now. And I don't allow anybody to force me to do a single thing. And that thing I am not able to follow now. In office, mind is concentrated on work but heart deviates it 'what are you doing? where is your favorite music? your guitar? that incomplete novel? endless things.....I want to do and I won't say I don't have time for that but in that time the Liveliness and the joy of doing my favorite things is missing.

               Now you will say 'Enough yar, its frustration nothing else and it's same for everyone.' I agree but may be I am used to live my life on my terms and conditions that's why these things are affecting me more. May be I am wrong but this is the meaning which I feel about being a good Professional. Its like -
Life become so Numb....

               Anyways, Congrats if you read this whole blog and thank you for reading thoughts of  a freaky mind. Do comment something which is motivational. Need it. And if you are frustrated by reading this, do read my blog 'LIFE - Let It Flow Endlessly', it will help you.... :-)

First Ever Book Review

                   "Good Job Shruti!!!". For the first time I got such a compliment in Life Skills class for presentation of a Book Review. As many people know that in this whole world the thing which threatens me the most is "The Presentation". So I was very surprised and happy by this compliment. I read the book "White Tiger" by Arvind Adiga and wrote my own review on that like a critic for the first time. Here is what I felt about that book.

     

                   First of all, I don't like this book as it's flow is not generating interest to read it. It is written as first-person narration by Balram Halwai, a self described entrepreneur in Bangalore about how to become successful. The basic plot of book is very simple. Balram Halwai is born into poverty. He gets a boring job as a driver for a wealthy family who treats him very badly. This thing leads Balram to kill his master Ashok and after killing him, he runs away to Bangalore with Ashok's money. It is in form of seven letters to Chinese Premier Jiabio who is scheduled to visit India. By this story, Balram wants to give him an idea about the Real India. Part of the story involved being a driver to a rich family in New Delhi where he learned that success often involves corruption, cruelty and different set of rules. It proves the saying that

"The truth, as it begins to emerge, is as shocking as it is fantastic."

                    Balram Halwai is the White Tiger and anti-hero. He begins his journey from the rural 'darkness', a world of landlord and escapes to 'light of cities', it is into a world of masters and servants. The sentence he wrote is "Once I was a driver to a master but now I am a master of drivers."

                     He has wrote many sentences to criticize Indian politics and to state the difference between The rich and The poor in India. He wrote "Free people don't know the value of freedom that is the biggest problem." He also says that "The poor dream all their lives of getting enough to eat and look like the rich, but what the rich dream of?" "Losing weight and looking like the poor." The writer  showcases the reality of Indian politics and poverty in villages very nicely.

                     As Arvind Adiga is an article writer, the style of his writing also repeats here which makes most of the parts uninteresting and story line is not properly maintained also the flow breaks many times. I felt that the story line is good but the writing style of Arvind Adiga as a hard-core narrator increases the length unnecessarily. It makes it 'a thesis on Indian politics' covered by a short story with a good start but confusing end.

                 Another weak point is that there is a long description of Balram's family in between the story which is of no use. Balram kills his master and after that point, there is no story related to Ashok;s family and how Balram safely escaped. In spite of all this, the story suddenly shifts to Bangalore without any obvious reasons and comes to a confusing end. It contains more of political criticism and explanation of every situation with fewer characters and dialogues.

                  Gives the feeling of 'Slumdog Millionaire' movie which won Oscar prize because International readers are more interested and feel very amazed by knowing 'Poor India, Dirty India or Real India, Corrupted India' and so they gave Oscar to such movie and may be Booker to such book. Being Indian, we all are aware of all these situations and scenarios, so I could not find anything new and interesting in this book.  At last the moral of the story may be 

"Listening is the best exercise in order to become Successful."

To get along with 'The Change'

                 So finally on 5^th December,2010, I entered to a place where I am going to spend the next three months for training. Actually real training was started when I got my joining letter. When I came to know the word ‘Coimbatore’, for 1-2 hours I was feeling something awkward but after wards I made up my mind and with blessings of God I got the strength and courage to come at Coimbatore because at a moment I was ready to leave the job as I have never been away from my home for such long period of time. But finally I am here and here is something about Coimbatore.

                       Firstly, I am an outsider here so from that point of view, I found this city very nice and peaceful. I must say people here are very much helpful and kind towards us. And the most attractive thing about this city is its variable climate. Here you can get Sunshine in morning and in evening gray rainy clouds takes over and feels like winter atmosphere in rainy season. You have a beautiful scenario of Mountains spread around in every direction from terrace; it is a pleasure to watch such natural beauty.  I felt like a stranger for first week as it is new place with new people and above all, new language which is totally out of my reach. Because here you can read only prices in some restaurants which are in English, the items listed are in Tamil so that is the funniest situation. Most of the time, we can communicate in English and Hindi which is helpful. One more thing is that as time passes, the feeling of being away is decreasing instead of increasing which I am finding strange. But may be the city has something which attracts and feels like home. So overall I love this small, sweet and peaceful city. Feels Good!!!   

                   I do not  miss my hometown or my family too much as I always talk to them by video calling. And I have also got too many too good friends here so I spend 'masti' time with them everyday. The change which I feel after coming here is that so many things I have learnt about life rather than regular studies. I came across different kind of people, observed their nature and lifestyle and took good things from that. But one thing I have noticed here is that More or Less the old habit of  'showing off to the society'  is here too. People wants to be too good, too smart and too knowledgeable on front off others. I am not much used to handle these kind of things so I found it strange rather than difficult but now I handle it and also learnt to enjoy the thing. It is really great fun!!!   

                   As everybody knows, I follow 'Happy Go Lucky' strategy everywhere. I mean Live totally in Present,  Never to worry about tomorrow's test and Little bit of planning to perform good. As I admit sometimes this 'Lucky' goes more 'Happy' then she should be so the result are reflected in some tests. But still I think If God has put me in this situation, He must have thought of the solution to get out. So I have no need to worry about the next day or even the next minute. And this approach has been very useful to me in Life because People generally miss their family and friends when they get tensed or when they are in problem, this makes them weak and also they lose their self-confidence to overcome the situation. I never take tension about anything or any small or big situation in Life because I believe that every problem comes with a solution as 'No Lock is made without a key, you just have to wait for the right time and the right key.' Here many people find my strategy surprising as they say,"'How can you be so calm and relaxed? It is about our future." I always reply, "I think my future is not totally in my hands. So I honestly do my best with dedication and never worry about the results. Because I have done work of my part, I have no control over what goes on next so I don't waste my time thinking about that. so I always Be Positive and chill!!!!"  

             So I know I should not do this but still I am advising you to Be positive in every situation as this thing has helped me a lot to adjust and to cop up with the changes which I felt after coming here..... :)

Living Music.........

Ah.. the name itself tells the whole story. Well, actually it is not logically right to write about Music because there is notihng new in that. Almost No introdution, no description as well as No ending. (#nowplaying ‘Raag Banke’) But still It is a topic on which we have endless descriptions as well as there is always something new and refreshing in every song.

Well for me and many other people on this Earth, Music is Life (not like life). Music is a thing which you can enjoy even if you don’t have any knowledge of that. Simply music creates every emotion of your life and sometimes it gives you some new unheard and unfelt feelings which are impossible to describe and unforgettable. As some songs are cachy while some are always touchy.

Music is really magical because It is amazing how only 7 notes can generate thousands of emotions, which changes our mind, mood and sometimes whole Life. (#nowplaying ‘yaadein title – female version’). I am not writing this article because I have a very good knowledge of Music. Actually Every time I get a new song to hear I feel ‘Oh.. I haven’t thought music can describe this in such a beautiful manner.’

Thanks to our Bollywood music directors I can say We have a lot more variety of music types and songs then Hollywood, Tollywood, Kollywood, or any other ‘wood’.(#nowplaying ‘Tera Mera pyar’). I can say this because the song I am listening now, the very beautiful song by Neeral Shridhar and Sweet voice of Falguni pathak – the ultimate duet ‘Tera Mera pyar sanam’..Wow.. wordings are amazing as well as superb music. Only Bollywood can have this type of combinations of English+Hindi lyrics. Also we have many other songs of these kind of fusion lyrics like (#nowplaying ‘Ek Din’) My dil goes hmm.., Vacancy, Meow, and the list goes on. This songs have english and hindi lyircs and are not evergreen great but enjoyable. And the latest is ‘Tumse hi Tumse’ from ‘Anjaana Anjaanni’, It has some nice english lyrics in between the song which are beautifully composed.

I don’t have a very high knowledge of Hollywood music and Hollywood bands but this is because Our music has never given us that feel of something missing so that I have to find out for other music. (#nowplaying ‘Payalein chhunmun chhunmun’) But I like all kind of music if it is good. Evergreen Kishore Kumar songs, other retro songs, Latest songs, 90’s music, Michael Jackson, and sometimes other good International music too. Listing out here is impossible. But still I can have some most favourite songs of mine which are always there in my playlist and I never get bored of listening them. For example I love the background tabla music of ‘Aye Hairate’ from ‘Guru’ and also the beginning part of ‘Baras ja’ and also the song which is I am listening right now ‘Payalein’ from ‘Virasat’ by Udit Narayan. What a slow, sweet evenly flowing emotions!!

So more discussion about some most loving songs will be in next part.(#nowplaying ‘Kabhi na sukoon aaya’) And this article will not give you any knowledge about Music. So there is nothing more interesting in it. But still If you like it, Do comment.

Ok, now It’s 1:30 AM. Time for last episodes of repeat telecast of ‘Rishta.com’ on Sony Tv which I want to watch (for last time L). So Good night to all. (#nowplaying ‘Chhaya hai jo’)

Act to Not Acting... Just once!!

"Can we stop ACTING/PRETENDING our self as a too good person for a while??"

Sometimes mind screams like this.. I think the best actors of the World we have not in Bollywood but in our BEAUTIFUL society. Not because they act so realistically, but because their acting is not so good and still we keep on supporting them. Actually the reality is Sometimes we also have to be a part of this acting.

I think now acting has become a full time job for us which we all do without any payment because we want to maintain the credit in this Society. All the time we try to act the way as the world want us to be. I have heard many people saying "I don't care of this society", but at the same time I can see that they are trying to pretend that they don't care. If you really don't care then what is the need to show it publicly?? Just acting. We act because we don't want to show our actual personality to this world because we think Society will not accept us the way we are. How strange is that

"Our lack of SELF-CONFIDENCE gives us the Super CONFIDENCE to act as another character."

The best examples I have seen in Social gatherings. So funny and truly Bad acting!! Everyone with plastic smiles, unnecessary sugar-coated dialogues and above all big useless laughs. Here I admit that Sometimes I have to be a part of this things. Not intentionally because I generally remain silent in these talks and people considers it as I agree with them. If anyone asks for opinion then I surely speak what I think but otherwise I just enjoy their act!! Because usually I like to observe these conversations rather than being a part of them. Everyone proves that their point is right(actually there is no point in these talks). That's why I like to see actors on TV rather than going in these gatherings. But when once we are there, we have to act as we are very Enjoying.

I have read somewhere that "A person is truly measured by the things which he does when he is alone." because at that time we can be what we are. but I think if it is so, then We should always ACT as we are alone so that we have no need to ACT more. Its very hard to do, and also some kind of selfish(as we all think selfishness is BAD thing), but I think there is no selfishness in BEING YOURSELF.

(Try it yourself, If you don' care of ................... :) )

Ok, so now don't act to be nice in your comments here :

EXPECTATION of 'Sorry' v/s EGO

I thought EXPECTATIONS chapter is over…but then I realized suddenly, without a BIG feel of EGO, how can I end it?

The EGO is the one thing why you can’t say ‘I am Sorry’ to anyone, because that is the biggest obstacle in your path. People think If they say Sorry, their image will get down. This society will consider them as weak If they feel guilty on anything. Whenever we advice anyone to say sorry… Some people react very horribly as we have made the biggest mistake. Some reactions are like:

1) “WHAT..???!!!” – As if we have made a big mistake by suggesting them.

2) “Why should I say ‘Sorry’? I didn’t do anything wrong.” – They know from inside that they made mistake but still they EXPECT that if other person will say Sorry once, then I will admit my mistake. How interesting thinking only because of this EGO..!!

3) “No ways…NEVER..!!!” – Now this is the most rude reply. The person is very desperate that he/she hasn’t done anything wrong. No chance..!!

4) “Ok..will try..”- This has some chances which may work sometimes.

Sorry, I am somewhat technical so a little bit classification was given above. I know it’s not good but can’t help it. So my point is, Personal EGO is the biggest weakness of a person. “Why should I do this?” Is the question which always arises in a person’s mind when there are some unusual situations. People think Only Weak persons say Sorry but I think

“If you can admit your mistake then you are the strongest person in the World.”

At least you have the guts to admit that “Yes, I was wrong”. I have observed that in every relation, we say ‘Sorry, my mistake’ for very small things. Like when your friend’s pen fell down by you, ‘Oh…I am sorry.” Or when you forget to bring any small thing of your friend which he/she demanded you say, “Oh no..i forgot ..I am sorry.” The situations are endless but very small. Even on roads when we accidently come across anyone we say ‘sorry’ even if we don’t know the person.

But why this same thing can’t be happen when you make some real mistake which truly hurts anyone? At that time, your EGO comes into your way and you are unable to accept your mistake. You can feel guilty for small things but why you can’t accept your big mistakes which are truly needed. At that time your EGO keeps pushing you away from your relations who once hurt can’t be regained. So just think once by putting your EGO aside, which thing is more important? Your Ego or your relations…….

Oh..Very much philosophical I can say, but this is totally practical and applicable. Really..!!!

EXPECTATIONS - What you are Expecting from this?

EXPECTATIONS… The easiest way to get hurt. Really this one word is the root cause of all the pain, sorrows, and sadness.

The more you EXPECT, the more you get hurt. Sometimes you EXPECT something more from yourself and you are hurt. It loses your self-confidence. Everyone has so many big/small expectations from you and you also has the same towards them.

But mainly what I personally hate is the expectations of this so called ‘SOCIETY’ from us, they always expect us to behave in a goody-goody manners, they want over-decent and extra well-manners from us particularly from youngsters (especially from girls truly!!!). I just don’t know why they all want us to be like them in everything. And when we are unable to fulfill their expectations, the storm of Advices and criticism comes to us to make us feel that we are making a terrible mistake by not satisfying their expectations. This is truly irritating and sometimes mind-blasting.

Another thing is to EXPECT ‘SORRRY or THANK YOU’ from anyone. Here, thank you is not a problem but when you expect ‘SORRY’ from anyone, and if it doesn’t come, yes… The thread of relationship starts getting weaker. I have also previously said that ‘NO SORRY, NO THANK YOU’ is only good in philosophy. If you try to use it in friendship, I bet you will hurt your friends intentionally or unintentionally. Because once you made a mistake, if you realize it, one SORRY is a proof to others that you realized your mistake. Because after your mistake, your impression to others is changed and magically a small ‘SORRY’ can create it back. Sometimes your mistake may be big; at that time sorry doesn’t work but I can say it can make the mistake smaller. So Here I am not advising anyone to say sorry, but only clearing the picture about how desperately SORRY is expected. And publically many people disagree with this, but they surely EXPECT it because it is human nature.

‘To expect and To get Hurt when Receiving Unexpected Things from Expected Ones.’

Ok, this is not so good and public appealing because you also Expected something when you read the title..Isn’t it?