Don't Overestimate - I, Me and Myself

               If you think every person coming into your Life is wrong then you should look at yourself and ask - Do you think, you are right every time?

               Firstly, it was just a status update on FB then I thought a little bit n started writing whatever came in. So, this question will always be answered negatively. How can I be wrong? I have done so much for them(family/friends/he/she), still they don't value me. These are the words of the Ego which lies inside us. I can never be wrong. Every time I get hurt, its all because of them/others. They should behave the way I want them to be at the time I want.

              Nobody thinks that they may get hurt because they don't understand the situation properly or may be because of over expectations. If you say, I don't expect anything from anyone so that I can't get hurt then I am damn sure you are lying. And you are pretending not to expect because at some point of time, you are already hurt by someone in your life :-). But Expectation is a decease which increases if not fulfilled.

               Surprised! Just think of this: You expect something from a person and its not fulfilled, result - you are hurt. And then may be you expect from another person and think 'No, he/she will never hurt me. He/ She is not like previous person.' So you increase your expectations. Lol.... and the next result - you guessed it right, one more time. And this time in a new way. [This is something really strange thing to understand but human psychology, i think]

               This thing happens to mostly those who always proudly pretend - I don't care. I think they have fear that if they won't say this, they will get hurt. But in either ways, they are not special human beings, so they silently expect  a lot and obviously get hurt. So don't pretend to be different and speak up. At least, others will know what you want them to be. And if you can't speak then stop blaming the world. It's not their fault but your so called ego that is responsible for your situation.

             Ohh... Enough now. You are feeling sleepy I guess!! Actually, I never edit my posts. Just write it once and then bang.. So sorry for that. Don't expect too much now ;-) and ya, I expect a small comment from you

Being Professional......

               "Big dreaming is free but to achieve them, you have to pay BIG prize."

               Well, nothing new or strange in this thought but only a little bit of experience I can say. As you can see, this blog is coming after a long interval. I will not give typical excuse like I didn't get time as that's not true. But yes, one thing is there. In last February I was in Coimbatore, In March I was in Bangalore and in April It is Ahmadabad (Gandhinagar) till now. So this reverse A(Ahmadabad), B(Bangalore), C(Coimbatore) has made my mind unstable so I could not write anything which is publicly and blogly(its my self-made word, don't check dictionary) accepted.

               Ok, enough of excuses. So here the thing is this professional MNC job is making me 'deadly' professional. As sometimes I observe myself and think 'Oh... once upon a time I was also living Life!!! I was reading good books, playing my guitar, watching TV, also writing blogs and lot more...'  And I don't like this 'was' replacing 'is'. Many people think what's new in that, this is true life. You have to do all these things for money. You are in a TCS still why you are crying like this? Yes, you all are right. I have a good job with a good salary but my mindset is little different. I always follow 'Do what you like' policy in life till now. And I don't allow anybody to force me to do a single thing. And that thing I am not able to follow now. In office, mind is concentrated on work but heart deviates it 'what are you doing? where is your favorite music? your guitar? that incomplete novel? endless things.....I want to do and I won't say I don't have time for that but in that time the Liveliness and the joy of doing my favorite things is missing.

               Now you will say 'Enough yar, its frustration nothing else and it's same for everyone.' I agree but may be I am used to live my life on my terms and conditions that's why these things are affecting me more. May be I am wrong but this is the meaning which I feel about being a good Professional. Its like -
Life become so Numb....

               Anyways, Congrats if you read this whole blog and thank you for reading thoughts of  a freaky mind. Do comment something which is motivational. Need it. And if you are frustrated by reading this, do read my blog 'LIFE - Let It Flow Endlessly', it will help you.... :-)

First Ever Book Review

                   "Good Job Shruti!!!". For the first time I got such a compliment in Life Skills class for presentation of a Book Review. As many people know that in this whole world the thing which threatens me the most is "The Presentation". So I was very surprised and happy by this compliment. I read the book "White Tiger" by Arvind Adiga and wrote my own review on that like a critic for the first time. Here is what I felt about that book.

     

                   First of all, I don't like this book as it's flow is not generating interest to read it. It is written as first-person narration by Balram Halwai, a self described entrepreneur in Bangalore about how to become successful. The basic plot of book is very simple. Balram Halwai is born into poverty. He gets a boring job as a driver for a wealthy family who treats him very badly. This thing leads Balram to kill his master Ashok and after killing him, he runs away to Bangalore with Ashok's money. It is in form of seven letters to Chinese Premier Jiabio who is scheduled to visit India. By this story, Balram wants to give him an idea about the Real India. Part of the story involved being a driver to a rich family in New Delhi where he learned that success often involves corruption, cruelty and different set of rules. It proves the saying that

"The truth, as it begins to emerge, is as shocking as it is fantastic."

                    Balram Halwai is the White Tiger and anti-hero. He begins his journey from the rural 'darkness', a world of landlord and escapes to 'light of cities', it is into a world of masters and servants. The sentence he wrote is "Once I was a driver to a master but now I am a master of drivers."

                     He has wrote many sentences to criticize Indian politics and to state the difference between The rich and The poor in India. He wrote "Free people don't know the value of freedom that is the biggest problem." He also says that "The poor dream all their lives of getting enough to eat and look like the rich, but what the rich dream of?" "Losing weight and looking like the poor." The writer  showcases the reality of Indian politics and poverty in villages very nicely.

                     As Arvind Adiga is an article writer, the style of his writing also repeats here which makes most of the parts uninteresting and story line is not properly maintained also the flow breaks many times. I felt that the story line is good but the writing style of Arvind Adiga as a hard-core narrator increases the length unnecessarily. It makes it 'a thesis on Indian politics' covered by a short story with a good start but confusing end.

                 Another weak point is that there is a long description of Balram's family in between the story which is of no use. Balram kills his master and after that point, there is no story related to Ashok;s family and how Balram safely escaped. In spite of all this, the story suddenly shifts to Bangalore without any obvious reasons and comes to a confusing end. It contains more of political criticism and explanation of every situation with fewer characters and dialogues.

                  Gives the feeling of 'Slumdog Millionaire' movie which won Oscar prize because International readers are more interested and feel very amazed by knowing 'Poor India, Dirty India or Real India, Corrupted India' and so they gave Oscar to such movie and may be Booker to such book. Being Indian, we all are aware of all these situations and scenarios, so I could not find anything new and interesting in this book.  At last the moral of the story may be 

"Listening is the best exercise in order to become Successful."

To get along with 'The Change'

                 So finally on 5^th December,2010, I entered to a place where I am going to spend the next three months for training. Actually real training was started when I got my joining letter. When I came to know the word ‘Coimbatore’, for 1-2 hours I was feeling something awkward but after wards I made up my mind and with blessings of God I got the strength and courage to come at Coimbatore because at a moment I was ready to leave the job as I have never been away from my home for such long period of time. But finally I am here and here is something about Coimbatore.

                       Firstly, I am an outsider here so from that point of view, I found this city very nice and peaceful. I must say people here are very much helpful and kind towards us. And the most attractive thing about this city is its variable climate. Here you can get Sunshine in morning and in evening gray rainy clouds takes over and feels like winter atmosphere in rainy season. You have a beautiful scenario of Mountains spread around in every direction from terrace; it is a pleasure to watch such natural beauty.  I felt like a stranger for first week as it is new place with new people and above all, new language which is totally out of my reach. Because here you can read only prices in some restaurants which are in English, the items listed are in Tamil so that is the funniest situation. Most of the time, we can communicate in English and Hindi which is helpful. One more thing is that as time passes, the feeling of being away is decreasing instead of increasing which I am finding strange. But may be the city has something which attracts and feels like home. So overall I love this small, sweet and peaceful city. Feels Good!!!   

                   I do not  miss my hometown or my family too much as I always talk to them by video calling. And I have also got too many too good friends here so I spend 'masti' time with them everyday. The change which I feel after coming here is that so many things I have learnt about life rather than regular studies. I came across different kind of people, observed their nature and lifestyle and took good things from that. But one thing I have noticed here is that More or Less the old habit of  'showing off to the society'  is here too. People wants to be too good, too smart and too knowledgeable on front off others. I am not much used to handle these kind of things so I found it strange rather than difficult but now I handle it and also learnt to enjoy the thing. It is really great fun!!!   

                   As everybody knows, I follow 'Happy Go Lucky' strategy everywhere. I mean Live totally in Present,  Never to worry about tomorrow's test and Little bit of planning to perform good. As I admit sometimes this 'Lucky' goes more 'Happy' then she should be so the result are reflected in some tests. But still I think If God has put me in this situation, He must have thought of the solution to get out. So I have no need to worry about the next day or even the next minute. And this approach has been very useful to me in Life because People generally miss their family and friends when they get tensed or when they are in problem, this makes them weak and also they lose their self-confidence to overcome the situation. I never take tension about anything or any small or big situation in Life because I believe that every problem comes with a solution as 'No Lock is made without a key, you just have to wait for the right time and the right key.' Here many people find my strategy surprising as they say,"'How can you be so calm and relaxed? It is about our future." I always reply, "I think my future is not totally in my hands. So I honestly do my best with dedication and never worry about the results. Because I have done work of my part, I have no control over what goes on next so I don't waste my time thinking about that. so I always Be Positive and chill!!!!"  

             So I know I should not do this but still I am advising you to Be positive in every situation as this thing has helped me a lot to adjust and to cop up with the changes which I felt after coming here..... :)